Sleep[Part 2]

Okay. The thing is, it’s three in the morning. I had a long day technically yesterday – some family stuff with down, nothing like fighting or whatnot, and I babysat for about six hours – and I had gotten to sleep really late the previous night again and I had to wake up really early.

I honestly wanted to sleep at eight. But I wanted to wait until ten, so I could see all of the Degrassi Movie thing that basically starts off The Boiling Point. So, it felt like Degrassi dragged on forever; my headache was horrible, I felt like someone was smashing my head with a hammer every time I saw the light or heard the noise.

It finally ended and I fell right to sleep.

Problem. Falling asleep at ten for me, meant I would wake up in the middle of the night. Many, many times I have tried making this a routine; going to bed at ten, [I just wake up every two hours before I finally stay awake until 3-5(or later) in the morning], I get up later than I usually do, and the process just repeats.

I don’t know what I’m doing wrong. All I know, is that I woke up at midnight, than again two, and now I can’t get back to sleep.

Sleep

Sleep is a very difficult thing to process for me.

You usually know it’s bad when you can’t even fall asleep for hours and then you try to listen to calming music, maybe watch television with the sound off, and maybe even try reading some of the most boring fanfiction you can could find online – which some ended up being really good.

But it’s even worse when you try to fall asleep, because it’s 7:30 in the morning and your father is awake upstairs. And even then, you stay up laying in bed with nothing on at all, tossing and turning, until 10:30 in the morning when you finally fall asleep, only to get woken up at noon.

Lyrics: One

And every day I try just to breathe
I want to show the whole world
The truth inside of me

- Ashley Tisdale, Suddenly